i met jeff haneman from slayer

hello people.... last night i had the weirdest dream. i was at a stadium, getting ready to watch slayer perform... and somehow i got back stage, where i was introduced to jeff haneman. jeff says to me, "i got 10 minutes til i have to hit the stage... wanna go for a ride on the beach in my truck?"... and i am like, "yeah, sure". so we jumped in his truck and drove at 100mph on the beach, and when we got to the end we stopped only to find two police cars waiting for us and they gave jeff a speeding ticket.

i need to make a point to remember my dreams more often....

medication update

i have modified my stance on the med issue yet again. the night i was feeling depressed, i was on a self imposed guilt trip about some things, and frankly, this colored my judgment on how the meds were effecting me. so anyways, i am back to only 100 milligrams of Zoloft in the morning as of about 10 days ago, and have had no ill effects. on the advice of a friend, i kept the melatonin in my regimen so that i am only changing one thing at a time. i will keep my readers (all two of them, i think) posted as more develops. cheers!

getting older.

my 37th birthday is this month. the 26th to be exact. send me well wishes if you care to. it amazes me that i feel much the same now as i did at age 19. that was the year "nevermind" by nirvana came out. in a few short years, it will have been 2 decades since that record hit the airwaves. my dad once told me (he was 43 at the time) that his brain felt no older than when he was in his 20s. he was right. i still want the same things out of life. i am still a human being. its just that the radio station that plays "the music you grew up with" regularly plays nirvana. its weird how i can feel old, yet so much the same as i was 17 years ago.

my freind glenn, who is 46, told me the other night that what he lacks in youth he makes up with immaturity. i like that. it made me laugh. don't need to take myself so seriously.

i am happy these days. and it is good to be happy.